n 1981, An American Student In Europe, Gretchen McGregor Walked Into A Bookstore And Bought A Book That Would Change Her Life Forever, A History Of The Worship Of The Divine Mother. Gripped By The Possibility That This Ancient Tradition Must Still Exist Today, She Embarked On A Journey That Would Take Her From The Hills Of Pennsylvania To The Mountains Of New Mexico, And By 1983 To A Remote Village In Kerala, South India, Where She Would Find A Mahatma, Known Only To The Pious Locals And A Handful Of Spiritual Seekers Who Had Gathered Around Her. They Called Her, Simply, Amma. Convinced That She Had Found The Divine Mother In A Human Form, Gretchen Settled Down To Seek The Highest Truth As A Spiritual Aspirant In Amma’s Ashram. Little Did She Know That Her Journey Had Only Just Begun. When Amma Received An Invitation To Visit The U.S. For The First Time In 1987, It Was Kusuma, As Gretchen Was Named By Amma, Who Traveled Alone To The U.S. To Organize Amma’s First Tour. With Little More Than A Hope And A Prayer, And Often Less Than Five Dollars In Her Pocket, 25 Year Old Kusuma Traversed The Length And Breadth Of America, Armed Only With A Home Video She Had Made Of Amma And A Heart Full Of Faith And Love.

Her Efforts Bore Fruit Beyond Her Wildest Dreams As The Subsequent Annual World Tours Allowed Amma To Touch The Hearts Of Countless People In More Than 25 Countries. But As Amma’s Mission Expanded, Kusuma’s Own Heart Grew Distant, And She Found Herself Turning Her Back On Amma And Walking Away. This Book Is Kusuma’s Unflinching Exploration Of Her Own Spiritual Journey; What Brought Her To Amma, And What Took Her Away. It Is Also The Story Of How She Decided To Come Back, And Finally Discovered That She And Amma Had Never Really Been Apart. Gretchen Kusuma McGregor Is One Of The Earliest Followers Of The Indian Spiritual Leader And Humanitarian Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi, Known Throughout The World As Amma, Or Mother, For Her Selfless Love Toward All Beings. She Lives In Amritapuri, South India. Published By The Disciples Of Mata Amritanandamayi Devi, Affectionately Known As Mother, Or Amma The Hugging Saint.

Questioning is a sign of growth taking place in the mind. But if doubts are not removed, they will hinder the progress of the individual, and should therefore be cleared immediately. Only then will the journey forward be possible. The words of a mahatma (great soul) can be fully trusted to free from confusion those who thirst for spiritual knowledge.
Every word uttered by Mother illumines the path ahead. In this books we can read Her answers to the questions and uncertainties that plague the modern age, answers given from the strength of perfect reason and the authority of Her experience.

This book chronides trials of personal transformation and meetings with some of India’s greatest contemporary Masters, including Mata Amritanandamayi, Nisargadatta Maharaj and disciples of Ramana Maharshi. It will illumine and inspire seekers to deepen their commitment to the values of love, wisdom and selfless service to humanity.
Swami Paramatmananda Puri is a senior disciple of Sri Mata Amritadanandamayi. He came to settle in her ashram in 1980 after having spent 12 years in Ramana Maharshi’s ashram in Tiruvannamalai. Born in America and familiar with the analytical Western mind, yet having fully lived and imbibed Eastern spiritual truths, he is able to present those truths in a manner that is readily understood by everyone.